I suppose I did not follow/read this gratitude challenge correctly….I feel that maybe I misread #8 and as such now #9 does not follow and would not make sense….so I am abandoning the sequence and going my own way….as I so often do 😉
How do I feel? Actually not too bad. I have been trying to figure it out. My life still sucks in so many ways, it’s not at all what I wanted at this stage and age of my life, however I have grown and changed so much in the last little while.
I am not sure if this is due to my health issues-not having the energy I used to, or just growing older. I really don’t like or can’t handle dealing with bullshit any longer!
Yay for me.
I have come to realize that putting myself first is not selfish. Not when I am more often than not the one to compromise.
It’s time for me. Time to discover new things, and enjoy the things I love. Time for some photography, time for making a new friend, time for a massage?! Oh ya!
Feelings are strange things. I have leftover feelings from things that began but never really ended. I have feelings about situations that are out of my control and I so desperately want to have control for them to turn out the way I want. I have feelings for all the small day to day things that happen.
Oh feelings.
May the next decade of my life be a journey of feelings.
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